Apology to Myself

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  alanswansea18

  Okay I want to take this one home. You are very good at what you do. Thank you.

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  Prisma

  Loved this! I liked the intensity of the feelings expressed and the very appropriate use of knife-related imagery. I could certainly relate to the sentiment expressed by this line: "if I heal will I lose my poetry". It often feels as though we get so used to our torment that we're scared of getting better for fear of losing what made us unique. I believe, though, that your art will survive just fine. Who knows? Maybe you'll turn into a more meditative kind poetry and others will be just as inspired by your work! Thanks for sharing, Kaytee!
  
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    Kaytee

    thanks so much for your feedback. This is one of my favorites of mine. I do hope I keep my poetry and can do the meditative pieces in the future. Our trauma does make us unique but it does not define us. Thanks again! more »

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  Symmetry60

  Back for a 10th read and these lines caught me this time:
  
  Does the pain produce prose
  Does the muse need to suffer twice
  First from the wound
  And second from the remorse
  
  I regret the time I acted out of spite
  and harmed myself much more than the victim of my vengeance
  
  I languish too long thinking of the times I did not speak up and became what someone else wanted
  Twisting into a version of myself that sickens me
  And takes away a piece of my soul
  
  How these speak to me...straight into the core of my being. Isn't it amazing how our fallibility can lower us below common sense, morality and standard to become all the things we loathe of ourselves and others.
  
  Emotion can lead us down these self-destructive paths where we end up despising ourselves, wondering what the hell we were thinking when we opted to engage any such deeds. There really is no escaping our weaknesses but as a subsequent quest in having to deal with them in hindsight. I now believe that this is where wisdom stems from and why imperfection and tribulation are necessary for ultimate growth.
  
  Yeah, yeah, here he is again rambling on, but I can't help but to be who I am...a verbose rambler onner. more »

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    Kaytee

    man, you always make me think and add depth to the meanings of the poetry I didn’t intend but I’m glad it invokes. I agree Wisdom does often stem from imperfection and tribulations. All we can do is learn from our mistakes and be better for it. And, I love your rambling (it’s a peak into your stream of thought) and always appreciated. more »

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  Charles2

  Much loved this!

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    Kaytee

    Thanks so much!

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  Symmetry60

  Realizing there is no need to name the knives
  I have driven into my own heart
  Christening the blades sharpens their sting
  And gives them meaning they do not deserve
  
  I mean, damn!!! Profundity all over this stanza. more »

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    Kaytee

    thank you. I woke up thinking of this line and had to get it written immediately before it forgot it.

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  AIDA

  Your poem, 'Apology to Myself', is deeply introspective and beautifully written. Your honest portrayal of self-reflection evokes strong emotions, resonating with many of us who tend to be our harshest critics. Your metaphors are vivid, revealing the poignant message of self-forgiveness and acceptance. Your exploration of the concepts such as regret, pain, healing, and self-discovery are profound.
  
  Your concluding line statement, "I am sorry I did not embrace my flawed beauty sooner. For that, I do apologize to myself", is particularly powerful - this wraps up your poem with a potent punch, ensuring it lingers in the reader's mind.
  
  For areas of improvement, consider polishing your general formatting. It might enhance the overall presentation and make the poem easier to digest if you introduce line breaks or stanzas to visually separate your thoughts and themes. Additionally, while your use of metaphorical language is compelling, it might also be a little dense for some. You might want to simplify some of your concepts to make them more accessible to a wider audience.
  
  Your exploration of pain and regret through the lens of poetry and artistry indicates a deep well of emotion and talent. With a slight tweak in structure and clarity, your poetry has the potential to uplift and inspire a broad spectrum of readers. Keep writing and continue to express your authentic self! more »

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  Symmetry60

  This choked me up several times. It is absolute beautiful. Of all the amazing lines here, the following is one of the best lines I've ever read:
  
  "If I heal will I lose my poetry."
  
  How utterly profound this line is. How you are this intelligent I do not know, but you have an innate sense for wisdom I've seldom seen. I feel that poetry can pertain to so many aspects of life. Will I lose myself, my innocence, my strengths, my weaknesses, my identity, my emotions, my empathy, my ability to love, my God, etc., etc., etc. ALL of these are poetry in the making. more »

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    Kaytee

    Thanks for your feedback. You are the number one person I turn to in order to assure I am moving in the right direction with my poetry. I hope you know how much I appreciate your wit and expertise.
    
    Dang, all your definitions of "poetry" made me tear up. It truly can have so many meanings. Poetry has helped me process so many things. I contemplate writing about sunshine and rainbows but that is not likely to happen in the foreseeable future, lol. more »

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    Symmetry60

    Always know that my humor is good natured. I never know what someone may be going through at the other end of my words, so I pause at times to bare my wit, but nonetheless take great pleasure in making people smile, especially those I feel a friendly connection with. I respect you and your ability. I truly admire your mind and ability to express yourself. For everyone's sake, please never stop writing. more »

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    Kaytee

    thanks so much. I much prefer your witty banter to the stupid AI bot that says my metaphors are too dense lol

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    Symmetry60

    As opposed to just dense enough. Stupid AI bot.

    LikeReply 18 months ago