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When I lost you
grief arrived with a twin
One asked
 that I mourn who you were
The other
that I mourn who you could have been
My heart feels torn in two
Half of me is buried with you
The other half
Lives on honoring you
I think of all our short memories fondly
But i still long to see your grin
The parts of your story left untold
It's the "what if's," that hurt the most
And how happy we could have been
I don't think my heart can fully mend
But I hope you feel all the love that I send
I know it's silly
but I look for signs of you
Little reminders or messages
To me from you
Like, when I look up at the grey clouds
And then I see the sun break through
I hope you can see me looking up at you
And when you look down on me
I want you to see
My smile
And how strong you've made me
To smile
 when you feel like breaking
To laugh
through your heart aching
To learn
to go on without you
That is the hardest lesson
 I've ever had to do
I know, now,
I can get through anything
So, if your up there looking down on me
I want to give you something good to view
So, I'm going to work at a being a better me
And that's the way I'll continue to honor you