Time sleeps in my absence
I am caught between banks of the river
I see stars, but no storms
I want out, not in
I see you there watching me
Judging where I am
I wish too that I wasn't this way
I will change for you, mother
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Calling me out
Out in the open
I can hear her voice through subtle whispers
She speaks into my ear
I want to know who she is
I want to see her breath of fire enter my lungs
I love this girl, she is an amazing being
Full of... – by Kelley Davies | 2 Views added 4 days ago
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Eternal sunlight arises
Amidst stifling darkness
May the moon shine brightly
On her experiences
May she find the light at the end of her tunnel
My path is narrowing
I have extreme worry
I wonder if I can summon the courage to go... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 8 days ago
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The light shown through the trees
Illuminated darkness
I walk alone, in a forest, made of men and many
I look to left only to see the stars brighten the sky
To the right, only trees
I wish there was a way you could see this with me
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Divine sprinkles
Guide my light
Across the stratospheres of time and space
I move fluidly like momentum shown
Deepest, brightest star in the universe
May she continue to call my name
In the twilight of my destiny
Desire's home
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The light shown through
Once
I didn't feel as though I was drowning
The sea was enchanted,
And all that glows was made evident.
From the freedom of her eyes.
Thoughts were a dream
And the miracle of life was born
The great... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 17 days ago
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This world
Gets on my last nerve
People
Make me wish for death
They judge
They hate me
I wish the pain was over
I stare to heaven
But remain lost
In hell on this planet
If Jesus were alive, could I be fixed?
I... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 20 days ago
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Little boy, I'm sorry
I don't feel sorry for you, but I am sorry for what you've gone through
I didn't plan it this way, or maybe I did
The books you've read said there was a destination, a purpose in all of this
But what if it was just... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 27 days ago
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Self doubt drives concern
Will he make it?
Will he burn?
Will he destroy himself before the tide has turned?
Karma is at my back door
Banging on the roof
Crawling through the window
Demon's hoof
Head pounding
The cracks... – by Kelley Davies | 5 Views added 1 month ago
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They hate those words
That might set them free
I'm lost in a forest
Out to sea
I'm still just a child
In a world so big
Not knowing where to turn
Not knowing when to speak
The spiritual world got me all messed up
I... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 1 month ago
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Them tides, they've turned
The world is at war
I try and keep it peaceful
But my spirit is torn
The same who've hurt me
Are calling for allegiance
To their deathly strategy
To destroy with obedience
Their plan is heinous
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The shadow on that wall
Makes noises in my ear
Not allowed to be myself, they say
Not wanted, they say
Go away, die in that pit of hell, it screams at me
I wonder, was I ever really a king?
Was I ever wanted, important, loved?
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Slow down, Kelley
That's what they keep telling me
But I can't go any slower
I'm feeling like a failure and am trapped
In words I can't decipher
Cryptic messages that mean nothing to anyone
I want to get lost and drown in the... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 1 month ago
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What if it collapses?
What if I break?
I'm falling, dying slowly
Ego torn to pieces
Bright sunshine on the edge of a heart holocaust
There is bleak, and then there is darkness
Dark sunrises
Black holes swallowing the whole moon... – by Kelley Davies | 8 Views added 2 months ago
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Stagnant, the suffering sits heavy
Weighs my heart down like stone
Fire can't burn it away
Water can't wash it away
Seething tongues heavy speak into my ear
Of my worthlessness
The misery ensues, no end in sight
The weight of... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 2 months ago
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The ones I hurt, to them, I'm sorry
You deserved none of it
I was arrogant, manipulative
The tides turn in the belly of the storm
I am being washed clean
Strung up and tied down like a man under water
I apologize, I know I've hurt... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 2 months ago
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Rumbles underneath the staircase of my soul like rain
The monsters trying to ascend and make a mess of my mind
I wish the pain would end
I see stealthy wise ancestors of time destroying my will to be alive
I feel angry mobs of coffee... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 2 months ago
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Voices in my mind
Rummaging around in the basement
Vying for control
Misusing me, abusing my mind
Taking control
I'm running from the pain
The fear is overwhelming
These wicked people are out for blood
They want my life
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All the juice has run out of this life
The fire went out
The meaning is gone and the purpose run dry
I see no reason to keep going
Other than perhaps to keep my family from suffering my loss
I want to leave this earth so badly
I... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 2 months ago
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Hell, brimming with fire
Calls my name
I descend into misery
Do you see why I don't want to go there?
Why I would rather choose an end to my life which doesn't involve that fire?
I'm serious when I say I want to leave
The pain is... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 2 months ago
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I wish I was one of them
I wish I would perish
My life has lost all meaning
It is pure tragedy
I go to bed dreaming of death
And loathe waking up in the morning
Maybe this is because of the ways I've hurt others
Maybe it's a... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 2 months ago
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I don't want to be here anymore
I'm sick of this life
I'm sick of the people, the places, the endless nothingness
I want to go home
Let me go, mother. Let me go home, to the real God, the real Love of my life
I don't belong and I... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 2 months ago
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Dweeb, dufus, pervert
Hated, bullied
Bruised battered ego
Skeezeball, nasty little boy
Disgusting filthy little puke of a child
It's going to take everything within me to battle this spirit
The spirit of death which wants my life... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 3 months ago
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This worthless soul
Watch him spin his wheels
Like yarn
Into nothing
The mind races
His mind races
Wanders past acres and acres of dry land
He's alone, lonely, dying
He's like an icicle of death falling to the ground
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Hates his life, his soul
Must have been born bad
No one likes him anymore
Alone without a name
What went wrong?
Where did he fall so far off?
I love you Kelley. And I'm sorry you've had to go through what you did.
I will... – by Kelley Davies | 2 Views added 3 months ago
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The attention people give me is strained
The emotions I have are misunderstood even by myself
I feel distance in people's voices
And I feel so alone
On the other side of reality, in another life, with another lifetime
It seems like... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 3 months ago
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There is nowhere to run anymore
Death arrives at my doorstep
Waiting for me to open the door
She wants me like no lover has wanted me more
And I wish to fall into her arms
Swooning my last breath
The gun drawn to my bloody face
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Life has run so meaninglessly dry
The long expanse of time and space
Death seems like a miraculous event
It's the train I want to ride to the end of the cosmos
Why are you all so happy? How can you be? Don't you see what's happening... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 3 months ago
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The happiness seems to come and go
And I wish there was something I could do to make it stay
I wish there was a place I could go where I felt at home
Instead of living this pain day after... – by Kelley Davies | 0 Views added 3 months ago
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We all have our various descriptions
Depictions of the realms of hell
For me, it isn't mine anymore
It is yours
There was a philosopher who described hell as others
I was in agreement for a long time
Then disagreement
But now I... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 3 months ago
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I wish I could give you something other than my depression and longing
Other than my fear and pain
I wish I could tell you it all gets better
Because for a time it did
It did get better
And then the window shattered and the fragments... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 3 months ago
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Homeless in Florida
In Colorado
Not only have I been a bum
But I've bummed out the rich people
The only solace I find beyond depression
Is my lovely mother
Who cares for me, loves me unconditionally, uncontrollably
I want to... – by Kelley Davies | 2 Views added 3 months ago
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Hallways
Drowning
Miserable steps down meaningless stretches of earth
There must be an end to this
Or maybe all that's left
Is... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 3 months ago
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I rise slowly
It's hard to alive myself
It would be easier to unalive
And no longer suffer
I pray for my family
I know they would miss me terribly
And even in a world that doesn't seem to care
I would hope to survive myself
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Forged in my heart there is a way to another life
Maybe a new one where I experience joy once again
I would hope that hope is alive and real
I can't see out of this fog
There is quite a lot of darkness
Smudges on the soul I wish... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 3 months ago
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It's like I'm dying slowly
Imprisoned in this clown suit
The weight of the world
The pressure consumes
And overwhelms me
Whatever "me" is
Depression is the norm
Good feelings have stopped
The misery of this planet
The... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 3 months ago
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Hope is leaving
Or maybe already left
What I dream about did die quite a ways ago
Again I'm left with empty hands
The thoughts run deep like a bloody cut
My existence runs dry
I no longer want... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 3 months ago
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At the mouth of death I stand whole
I wonder if she'll devour me
I must go under the knife in this surgery of the... – by Kelley Davies | 5 Views added 3 months ago
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Dry beard, empty shampoo bottle
That train hits hard against the wall
Making chasms from a small disaster
That train runs dry and crashes into another
Making dripping blood from juicy extracts
The exact time of the end wasn't yet... – by Kelley Davies | 5 Views added 3 months ago
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This planet done got lost
We are all tripping
I'm turning coats and switching standards
This life isn't for me because it's over anyway
I lost the battle, and the war is over
It's too late and we screwed ourselves out of paradise with... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 4 months ago
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Crying like a child without his mother
I see no light left in the stars
I wonder where it all went
My mind is empty and blank, the state from my eyes reflects that darkness
No one knows, no one sees me
I'm a brick being laid... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 5 months ago
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Plummeting down to hell
I feel lost in a sea of nothingness
Nothing I write is healing
Nothing I think makes any sense
I want to die
I don't know who I am anymore
I don't know if I've ever known
I feel like a child in a man's... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 6 months ago
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My head is sick.
It makes my body sick.
I wonder how to stop the pain.
This cancerous sore in my being, the soul. A sickly, dying soul.
Is this real? Am I real?
Is everything I ever believed to get me through the suicidal times... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 9 months ago
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That seeking could be a lost cause
Looming around me
That searching for the meaning of life
May be making me sick
The war isn't over, it continues in waves
The peaks and valleys get higher and lower
I stretch strong, grasping at... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 9 months ago
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Unwanted, unloved
Not wanted here
Doesn't want to be here any longer
Endless temptation to destroy it all
The life is gone within
Wanting to find the soul
Time to... – by Kelley Davies | 1 View added 10 months ago
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Kelley, you're being inappropriate
Be quiet
What I heard, shut your mouth kid
Don't speak up
Don't defend yourself
Don't question adults
Kelley, you talk too much
Ok, I'll shut up. I'll never speak again.
They hate me,... – by Kelley Davies | 2 Views added 10 months ago
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She took a part of me when she touched me there
I was a child, in despair
My life has become a fog, a memory which blocked the air
My soul wrapped up in some kind of cloudy stratosphere
Trying to escape became a lost cause, and the... – by Kelley Davies | 4 Views added 10 months ago
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To a lie of all things
Why have I destroyed my life?
For a lie
God help... – by Kelley Davies | 2 Views added 10 months ago
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Those ocean wide eyes
Starlit, trickling the tears down his face
Crying for us
Why won't we awaken?
God it hurts
I try to weep with Him, but can't match that ocean of solace and warmth
The Love within Him
And the... – by Kelley Davies | 3 Views added 10 months ago
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Earth hostile
Maybe a prick to the skin
Would feel a little better
I'm dying
No one gives a damn
Not a second thought given
To this despairing soul
A trifling matter
Watch him lose
Watch him fall to bits and pieces
... – by Kelley Davies | 6 Views added 10 months ago
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Time is ending
The future is gone
I may live or die all in a day
I no longer wish to be here
I am watching this world evaporate and lose
The darkness takes over the light
Eats it like a sandwich
I'm spinning in nothingness... – by Kelley Davies | 9 Views added 11 months ago
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Watching her walk slowly away
I wish I could tell her
Tell her I loved her once
Tell he how much she meant
She left so long ago and there's no way back
There is no coming back from this
I'm sorry I lost you
I was playing in a... – by Kelley Davies | 5 Views added 11 months ago
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The long walk uphill
Creates fear and stress
I cling to the side of the mountain in duress
My life has lost all of the belonging I once felt
I blame the other
Create chaos with mother
Stare loud down the end of a shotgun barrel... – by Kelley Davies | 5 Views added 11 months ago
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Dropping change out my pocket like a pickpocket lost in the wilderness
Screwed up, messed up, fleeting thoughts, fleeing from my feelings
Where's the answer and the truth. Endless optimism leading to total disappointment.
Nothing makes... – by Kelley Davies | 11 Views added 11 months ago
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She stole my heart with a single glance
I became entranced, enthralled by the moment's momentum
The sun went into heaven, and the stars evaporated
Through time, like a conveyor belt, I was slung like a grape through a vessel
The air... – by Kelley Davies | 63 Views added 11 months ago
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