The Pain I HIde..

Broken and lonely..yet again..
You walked away with ease..
As I was slowly breaking..
You have no regrets to what you have done..
Yet again I have let you take control of me..
And yet again I have let my abuser break me..
My heart is broken and soul now gone..
All I am left with is an empty shell..
And no strength to rebuild..
 Just trying to pick myself up off this floor..
I'am sinking further and further down..
It feels like it is sucking me in..
Belittled..an hurting in so many ways
I fade into a harsh existence of nothingness..
You have helped me become..
As you move on and shatter me more..
You slander my name and just keep the pain flowing..
Does this cycle ever end..
All I did was love you with all of me..
You couldn't see nothing but a supply to feed your ways..
lying, cheating,and the emotional abuse..
Gas lighting and love bombing away like it was a game..
You might as well dug my grave with the every word you spoke..
Slowly killing everything is me..
My heart thought I loved you...
It was just the thought of you..
It was only when i realized..
The thought of who I wished you could be..
Is was what kept me here..
Dear, Narcistic man I love..
Let go! Set me free once again..
So my soul can heal..
And I can love myself once again..