The Recovering Empath

Wondering what I did..
Do I deserve this pain..
The lies, broken promises, and heartbreaking truth..
the double life of a narcissist..
The love bombing.
The "Hello Beautiful's..!!"
To the "You're so stupid..!!"
From gas lighting..
To "Let's get married.!!"
From "The you'll never find someone to love you like me..!!"
The cheating and "Just friends"
The mentally an emotionally..
Getting knocked down and being left there. To drown alone..!!
The hard pick me ups, walk aways, and good-bye's
Just for another "Hello!!!"
I just cant let go of the slim glimmer of hope..
You can be the man i truly need!!
Nope!
You only got worse..
Finding new ways to bring me pain..
The non-stop using and abusing.
Keeps going until I finally find the strength..
Praying to walk away for good..
One thing I need you to know..
I will be loved!
I do deserve more than you could ever give or bring to me.!!
I will once again find my worth..
I will show you I can be greater than you ever have believed..!!!!
I WILL BE WHOLE AGAIN!!
WITHOUT YOU; I WILL REGAIN MY LIFE!!