You Are Always Near

You Are Always Near

I cant take this anymore don't you see
Your emptiness is killing me
All I can seeing is a darken road in front of me
my past behind in the shadows
But your words will always be with me

why cant I step out and face my fears
Why do I hide in all those treas
I have to keep all my feelings bottled up inside silently
In the night with all your lies

Everything that I  have ever wanted I have gained
yet lost with one little action of hate
When you came my way
I know I'm not perfect this you tell me every day
But then you are not as well so why do you give me hell?

I know what people expect of me to live out my dreams
But if they only known my dreams make me scream
All day long they laugh at me and call me names
I'm tired and I am sick
I want to rest but too scared to shut my eyes afraid of the night

I find your eyes on me every where I go
It's as if you want my soul
You haunt me day and night
You have others watching why you take a night
how i just give in to what i hate
to what I yearn
to what i fear Is you Dark Angels that keeps me on the run

Memories always cut the heart so deep
More then what I have done out of my own actions
blood is spilled, it stains the carpet, it bears my body
why do I stay in the past you all ask ?

Because the pain of it haunts me not and day
do I fear what I hate? or do i yearn what I fear?
either way I know one thing You are always near
Giving me tears and fears .

Lilly Emery (c)