I am Destined to Fly



I remember the day we met.
Too young to see the danger.
I didn't know the devil you were,
That you'd fill me with so much anger.

At first you gave me comfort,
Numbed me from the pain,
But the light you gave me faded,
Brought blackness to my veins.

Your trap worked as always.
I am not the only one to fall.
So many friends forever gone now;
No one's left to call.

Dragged me to rock bottom,
Each day a life in hell anew,
Felt there was no possibility
Of breaking this dependence on you.

Every day I woke
With only you on my mind,
Desperate for your love,
More desperate for you to die.

Through time I saw you were evil.
I watched you steal my soul.
Each time I tried to get away,
You would not let me go.

Tried to scream and cry,
Eventually accepted my fate.
Everyone had tried to warn me,
And now it was too late.

Family and friends could never understand,
Couldn't hear my silent plea.
They did not want to see
The sick effect you had on me.

You locked me in a cell.
You made me freeze at night,
Made me deceive those I loved,
Made me live in constant fright.

Left broken, battered, and bruised,
My number of scars grew.
Both physical and mental,
While the number of wasted years flew.

Went through the motions like a zombie.
No longer did I see
Any type of future
In this world for me.

You erased any shred of hope
When everyone turned their backs.
Difficult to escape this dark hole and cope,
Impossible to defend against your attacks.

I knew no church, no God.
YOU, my ultimate power.
No way to know real love.
I was now a rotted, dead flower.

Then one day it happened.
Most amazing hope one moment brings,
And I decided then and there
That I would grow my wings.

No longer will you take from me
Like you have stolen all these years.
You will never take my life.
No longer will I cry these tears.

I will deal with the pain.
I will swallow all my pride.
I will deal with my life of rubble.
I'm prepared for this difficult ride.

If it kills me to leave you,
Then I will gladly die,
Because with you I'm only surviving,
And I have been destined to fly.

I will soar, laugh, and smile,
Will breathe my life once more.
I will go back to a time
Before you came knocking at my door.

About this poem

This poem was written after I got clean from a 14 year meth/opioid addiction. I based it off a letter I wrote to my family. When I stumbled across the letter shortly after getting sober, it brought back so many negative and painful memories. However, it also made me feel so proud for the things I have accomplished and overcome...things that at one point seemed impossible. Recovery is possible, and it's up to you to grow your wings.

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Written on February 23, 2018

Submitted by Joshy1987 on March 27, 2024

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Scheme XAAA XBXX XCXC XDED XXFG HXXX GIEI XEEE XJXJ XDHD EEAE KLKL XAFA XMXM EXXX BNHN DGXG XOXO
Closest metre Iambic tetrameter
Characters 2,196
Words 508
Stanzas 18
Stanza Lengths 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4

Joshua Ewing

I am a 36 year old male that has been through years of pain and abuse but that hasn't kept me down it actually has made me stronger I went through years of drug addiction and what I found out is when I'm sober I like poetry some people paint some people can draw I was gifted with the talent to write I pour my heart and soul into everything that I write. I create these poems for other people that might be going through what I'm going through for inspiration for them more…

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  • adognut
    This poem speaks to a period in my life when I believed death was my only hope. But a day came when life was given a second chance.
    LikeReply21 days ago
  • ellahawton8
    I believe this poem is written quite well, and it spoke to me.
    LikeReply21 days ago

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