Meth has a hold on me



I am angry...

You made me believe you were the cure for my every kind of pain.
I had you wrapped around me while I let you take control of my veins.

At this point in time I didn't know who or what you turned me into,
But you made it impossible to get through days without you.

You had control of my body now, and if I didn't choose you,
you made me feel so sick to where I was helpless, not knowing what to do.

By now I started doing the things I swore I would never do,
lying and stealing off the people who didn't mean a thing to you.

You had me convinced that throughout my life you were determined to stay,
that I did not have that option of turning and walking away.

Before you know it, everyone I loved saw this side of me that was hurting them inside.
Every time they questioned, I did what you taught me to do...lie.

I wanted to let you go and get you out of my way,
so scared to tell someone, imagining what they would say.

Don't want to be judged, it was a decision I would have to make,
but I've wasted so much time; it was a little too late.

Being put in jail was something I knew it was going to come down to,
but it made me free of relief knowing that I could not get to you.

It was a struggle but a worthwhile fight
because now I am in control and you are out of my life.

Being sober turned me into the person I've always wanted to be,
and that was the one day you were praying I would never see.

Now I am doing the good things I never imagined myself to do,
and proudly I can say I am doing them without you.

About this poem

I was addicted to meth for many years putting it in my veins. Before I got sober it had me as it's slave thought I was never going to get rid of it but now as being sober I want to put into meaning words how much control it had over me like I was it's slave hopefully this can impact others that may be in the same situation as me and help them be free from it's slavery

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Written on December 22, 2023

Submitted by Joshy1987 on February 25, 2024

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Quick analysis:

Scheme A XX BB BB BB CC XX CC XX BB XX AA BB
Closest metre Iambic octameter
Characters 1,536
Words 352
Stanzas 13
Stanza Lengths 1, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2, 2

Joshua Ewing

I am a 36 year old male that has been through years of pain and abuse but that hasn't kept me down it actually has made me stronger I went through years of drug addiction and what I found out is when I'm sober I like poetry some people paint some people can draw I was gifted with the talent to write I pour my heart and soul into everything that I write. I create these poems for other people that might be going through what I'm going through for inspiration for them more…

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