Why Try (Remastered)

Why Try?
                    By: Jonathan Conway



Anticipation
Like a robot
I can give you all the options
But decisions are not in my optics
Indecisive, the-the-the words come out stuttering
I apologize my precedent is muttering
The stars I look to see
So large and far they suck the breath right from me
Hopeless, knowing nothing is real
No use hoping
Do we even feel
L-Love is the predecessor of pain
Yet it this hollow promise that keeps humans sane
It is so cruel to let someone love you
You only prolong their pain
I keep my mind open
Hoping that I can breathe
Choking on what I see
This I believe I weep

They antagonize me
My only reprieve I seek
Is fear of making that leap
I apologize for my use of colloquials
I find it an amusing ordeal
But it’s wrong
I wish to be better
Yet better can not be-be what I see
Laugh at the weak and they’re weak if they weep
Like a river my feelings seep
Why must we say goodbye
Why do we try?
I spend my time crying
Trying to stop relying
on equations which I am used to multiplying
Lying when I say I’m not dying
Discontent not believing fate is imminent
I try and try to do my best
No sleep no rest
I write words on a page
F-F-Falsified blasphemies
I must persist
My best I must insist
Error
I cannot come to understand
These emotions which I am faced hand and hand
All of them are pained
A picture which my calculations paint
Maybe my processing is not ecstatic
But my emotions have proven not emphatic
As my cpu starts to protest
My logic is put to the test
Will and emotion I know not which is best
What good is all my knowledge if I am powerless to use it
Yet others who are stupid have power and abuse it
So someone, someone
Someone please tell me!
Why do we try?