A Resurrection Of The Truth...

It's been so long since I put words into rhyme,
I had lost the will and didn't have the time.
I was badly deceived by a friend and completely lost my way,
There was only time for pain and hurt - no time for play.
To say I went through hell is putting it mildly for sure,
The depth of reoccurring hurt I suffered - had no cure.
I had honestly been beat down and hurt to the core,
But I knew I could find relief in Him, even thou I was poor.
Everything I had loved was completely torn away,
I wanted so bad to escape - but was given no choice but to stay.
I hit rock bottom - time and time again till my will was crushed,
I needed so badly to scream for help but my attempts were hushed.
When I had nowhere left to turn - I crashed hard with an empty cup,
While laying there flat on my back in the floor - my only view was up.
So I lifted my hands to my Savior - straight up to the sky,
I laid it all at His cross with explanation - as the tears I did cry.
Suddenly there was a calmness in the room like never before,
I wasn't alone anymore thou no one came through the front door.
While laying there my body lifted up just a few inches in the air,
I heard the light fluttering of feathers blowing against my hair.
I laid there still - as I could feel feathers brushing up against my body so gentle,
As I thought to myself - this is so far beyond my mental.
The movement of the many feathers were putting off this kind of hum,
I could feel that they were angels taking away all of the hurt - yet I wasn't numb.
I wasn't sure what to think - was I soon to be dead,
As I could feel something in my mind - rearranging the thoughts in my head.
The negativity was being removed - positivity being put in it's place,
I could feel this calmness throughout my body and face.
All of the pain began to start slowly ceasing to be felt,
The hurtful years of failure had also began to melt.
Soon there was before me a large rock of clean slate,
With a vision of my Lord Jesus - with a new direction for my fate.
Then slowly and delicately a familiar face was lowered into view,
It was a vision of my new destiny - believe me it's all true.
There before me was the gentle eyes of my only childhood friend,
With His arms reaching for me - Him expressing - your heart I can mend.
I had been used to hurt so deeply in my now induced state,
How could He ever forgive me - His love for me must be great.
I began to reach out for Him as the tears flowed down my face,
The Lord was standing beside me as He showed me His grace.
I slowly closed my eyes as I began to feel my hand being touched by Him,
No matter what you're going through - Jesus's love will heal it - the chance is better than slim.
I looked up at Jesus - wondering how could he even love me still,
As He reassured me that He always had and that He always will.
I know I never could've done anything to earn His Holy glance,
But right there before my eyes - He'd given me a another chance.
Oh my Lord God above - how desperately I did confess to you - all my sin,
As you told me to let the past all go - so my new life could begin.
What all you are releasing to me at my cross - I will never remember again,
For it is time for a new beginning - that must now begin.
You have instructed us to lift it up to you - all the wars that must be fought,
For your are the Great I Am - and now the Devil will be caught.
Lord our love for each other runs all the way to the core,
Please don't let anyone or anything come between us anymore.
My Lord I must be honest - there is still a good deal of hurt and fear,
I now prayerfully ask for you to take it out of me here.
For better or for worse my Lord - till death do us part,
God will you please heal the damage done to my heart.
I now realize that my body has been wounded from the battle,
I ask in Jesus' name for healing - so I don't crack, snap, or rattle.
I now know Lord - that you have more for me to do for you in this life's story,
I know you will restore my once shattered life - and to you be all of the glory.
For all you have blessed me with my Lord - I give you thanks,
Your grace, unending love, and mercy, are my rewards - not money in many banks.
Don't get me wrong my Lord - it will take some funds to help me do your work,
Just help keep me to be humble and grateful - and not some kind of jerk.
I realize now Lord that I had to go through the life's auditions - in order to play a specific part,
My Lord I have now completed some of those for your Kingdom - with happy and giving heart.
Thank you Lord from my soul - for all of the pain for your work I did suffer,
I must confess - my spirit needs to be restored and polished with a buffer.
I never could've survived all of this Lord without you by my side,
Just look at the misguided paths behind me - God knows how hard I tried.
I know now my Lord that anything worth having requires much effort and time,
I just wonder how much more we could achieve - without Satan's interruptions of crime?
Lord, I fully accept that wrong was done by me - I rarely understood that the danger was there,
For all of my foolishness robbed me of my life, and my ability to care.
Help those reading this to see that for my sins - I have paid a heavy price,
And that the only thing that saved me from Satan's grasp - was Jesus's unselfish sacrifice.
I had spent years running all of my days and nights from the hidden shame,
Because from being a molested child - I was told that I was to blame.
Let me tell you with brutal honesty - that's a lot for a child to hold,
For I had fallen victim to all of the lies that I had been told.
Now I realize with the Lord's help - all of His truth deep in my heart,
So don't let the Devil mislead you any further - reach out to God from the start.
Has he resurrected me to perfection - no - get that lie out of your head,
He helped me to see value in myself and actually brought me back from the dead.
What all I have learned from the Lord has now made me a better man,
So lift your hurt and shame up to Him - I'm living proof that He can.
With God's help - I will be used to further build His Kingdom - one step at a time,
And that brings the Lord and I to the end of this truth speaking rhyme.

For anyone who has been hurt by someone they trusted...God has caught your every tear and your inner pain was never felt alone...God has always been there...waiting for you to lift it all up to Him...so through Him...you new life will begin.