this beautiful drowning

yesterday  
when i was beside her
floating in passionate arms   
below the neckline,
under baby breaths absorbing
lullabies & black magic hymns
just to drown at the center  
under the gaze of dreamy eyes  
holding on to angel hair for a moment  
grasping one last moment into memory.  
and i thought i’ll be missed drowning
but at the bottom she was there too
in this beautiful drowning.  
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in the corner of her living room  
pictures of pictures nailed on the walls  
but there to remind ....  
what belonged to me, what to touch,
where to take her, what not to ...

something's howling and shouting from the walls,
weakened by there own conviction
a wish for one more try
to live one more moment  
at the edge of an end
of a beautiful drowning....  
just one more drowning .....