Oh Satan

Oh Satan
Come and remedy
the flaws of your plans
To entrap her,  
At least a prayer for the dying
Innocent parts of me.

oh Satan
Come over and waste away with me
I’m not over-dramatizing
listen to her recite epic ballads
of fallen mercenaries,
Revelations & Invincible vibes,
it doesn't look good to me...
just gloom & haze....

Can you feel her hovering over me
Whispering in my ears
“It feels good again.”
Can anything else be this good?
To be the chosen tortured one?
I wasn't careful in choosing my battles.

Oh Satan
What have you done to me?
Did you dare to conspire,
I thrust-ed into her all of me
I thought I was enough
Now I’m just another carcass left behind
I can tell by the way I miss you.

Sanity is on a stroll, thinking things over,
Voices of the past crowded
behind tree lines echoing,
Queuing me what to say....  
I’m isolated in the cycle of vicious years.

Oh Satan
I was supposed to be your mighty sword
I was supposed to be the foolproof plan
What a coward now that you are
I lost her & you failed me.

Suddenly
I know what it’s like to live in the past
I know what a bleak future means
I know what a last wish means
I know know what it’s like to be disconnected

Oh Satan
so run until you find me
by the edge of anything
untie me from this knot
and let me be my own

never tear me apart from me
let me choose my own suicide
something I can claim my own
I'm on the road
roaming the freeways
there's no turning back
when I meet the perfect stranger
in silent lucidity.