un-god like

you’re all I could know   
indecisive eyes   
rising heat from my palms   
I intend to mend   
common complications  
pray once for keeps   
for you endlessly  
a reason to tear you  
from the inside out  
never care to stop   
until your  
innocent erotic moving sways  
falter to the ground   
-  

lay next to me  
un-forgiven    
catch my breath  
kiss my lips  
and witness badly seeded notions  
in me bleed  
in fashionable hunger   
I’ve dwelled too long in shame  
little lover  
to detect what god is for  

in earthling materials   
un-godlike morals   
I found no reason for religion  
without you  
but in flashbacks   
I adore my selfishness   
in a feeble empire   
crown of fools   
silhouette dancers   
calling the impregnated skies  
to mourn upon my fields of lies   
tucked away neatly under a cave  
miracles happen  

sometimes  
I feel so nostalgic  
from the truth and god  
in your absence  
since I can't have you  
I really miss them  
the only solace I have left  
and all I need to touch is you   
to cross over  
to be closer to them  
since I can't have you  
I need to cross over  
come to me   
get me closer to me   
come closer