The Story of Amen

Dead inside here for 20-something years
For being an unbeliever
Waiting for a call
Struggling for direction
Searching my strange aliases
Digging into my ancient feelings
God is older
But God is not helping me
I’m all alone down here
Amen

On the ledge of my pillow
Suicidal thoughts
About Being Old
Past my prime
Breaking a chain
About being bold
daring to find you
My savior
Amen

Chained by my own promises
Falling from my grace
Losing my crown of thorns
Floating to the top
Amongst the living
To a nameless land
Where you live
Up above where God exists
As they say
Because he doesn’t hear me here
Maybe up there?
I believe
Amen

I get closer to the center of gravity
I hear a laughter
I see a smile
I feel loneliness
I see the light
blending eyes
assimilates into my world
Leading me
I’m listening
Is it an illusion?
But why care?
I answer
Amen

I heard you
Calling underneath your breath
Shadows have been waiting
For your heart not to be taken
But for mine to be given
A sacrifice
For one more day
I can hear the call
I answer
Amen

I breathe red oxygen.
I confessed the dirt I bred
I redeemed life absolute
I broke the cast  
It’s time to go
Deactivate the pause
I’m semi-free
Amen

I’m waiting
But you’re far away
I’m waiting anyway
I heard the shadows steps
I heard my name being called
for a scapegoat
I’m answering
Amen

Will we cross paths again?
See eye to eye?
For a moment to recognize
This broken man in a tomb
Or brush me off?
Omens breaking my thoughts.
I’ll never betray
This is the moment
Amen

I hear footsteps
The edge of the door swinging
Feeling a shadow of warmth
Receiving a vibe
The lights dimmer
Silence engulfed the room
Holding words captive
Trapped my breath
A flicker of flame is ignited
I’m alive
Amen

No matter what it may bring
Fame or shame
I broke the chain
Not to be afraid
Dropping my cloak of fear
So, speak your mind
I’m at a crossroads
Amen

However, I may be judged
At last, I believe
I will be set free
To live or die
I’ll vindicate myself
I’ll breathe
I accept what’s pronounced
wholeheartedly with an
Amen

God is alive and here.
But he’s too Late
So
Amen to you (Elsee)
Amen