Lost love

It feels like only yesterday,
The day I lost you.
Each and every moment whenever your face flashes infront of my eyes,
I tremble.
I put my shivering and cold fingers in my lips covering my mouth slightly,
It doesn't feel right , it never did.

It feels like, you'll just call me out of nowhere like you always did,
And repeat the lame jokes of yours,
Put a smile on my face and make me laugh.

It feels like,  you'll just ring the bell on my door and as i open it,
I will see your frowning face, complaining about the traffic,
and the chocolates which you always buy for me on the way.

How am I supposed to believe that you're gone?
I'm sorry, but i don't have the courage to look at the sky and say goodbye.
I'm weak and fragile,
I needed you , you promised to stay till the end.

How am I supposed to believe I can't see you anymore, I can't hold those warm hands?
How am I supposed to be strong and move on,
 when the only thing that kept me going was you?

It feels like only yesterday,
The day I lost you.
Each and every moment whenever your face flashes infront of my eyes,
I tremble.
I put my shivering and cold fingers in my lips covering my mouth slightly,
It doesn't feel right , it never did.

-rxyawrites ♡