GRASPING TIGHTLY

I never meant to hurt you,
I know
Am not exactly right.
I didn't mean to go there,
And stay the entire night.
My lust for love
Is evil,
To be touched
And tightly squeezed.
Every time,
I am near him
I get weak,
In my knees.
Trying to be faithful,
Trying to be a good wife
There is something,
Deep within me
I have enjoyed,
My entire life.
He penetrates
My passion,
By a simple kiss
Or the way,
He strokes my hair.
The thought of him
Excites me,
With a phone call
Am already there.
Why can't I stop this,
And give my love
To just one man.
I don't see it
In my future,
I don't think
It's designed,
For my life plan.
So apologies
I extend to you,
I hope
I didn't scar your heart.
I should
Have been honest,
And straight forward
And confessed,
From the very start.