LOOKING AT MYSELF

Looking at myself,
Like many people do.
The scars and old age,
Is starting to show through.
My bones feel more withered,
And my mind is not the same.
Feeling I have lost years
Playing a shallow game.
I ache throughout my body,
Inside and out
Can't someone try and help me,
By just reaching out.
Try to understand me,
As I try to understand you
Don't look at me,
As if I am crazy
And call me a stupid fool.
Each of us are different,
And has gone through
Our own personal pain,
Sometimes all we need
Is to be pulled out of the rain.
My tears are all I have,
My pain is all I own
Memories and disappointments,
Have made this sad lonely home.
My heart don't feel the same,
My emotions are bottled tight
Not wanting,
To share with anyone
Am so tired
And out of fight.
My eyes have lost their spark,
I see it all the same
I never wanted,
It to end this way
I lost my internal flame.
Love is just a word,
I used to believe in.
After all
That I have been through,
I swear..
I will never hurt again.