Anxiety and depression

My f*cking anxiety is peaking and I don't know why.
Life is too hard no matter how hard I try.

This dark cloud of depression in this world is consuming and it's all around.
Some of us cant talk about it because we know its trouble when we make a sound.
The monster will screech so loud it will shake me to the ground.

The worst part of depression is staying quiet,
If you say what you feel it will cause a riot.

Music and a small hand full of people people are the only things that keep me living.
Sometimes death tries calling and I've been itching.

It's hard whenever you dont feel pain,  you can't feel anything and you just sit
and try to forget about all of it.

I cant feel, I can't f*cking feel.
When I'm with you it makes me feel so happy and all the clouds go away,
But when reality hits i know I'm just far away here and sick of my life day by day.


I miss you.
I just wanna f*cking kiss you.
I wish I didnt have these issues.
My heart belongs to you. My heart aches to be with you.
I wanna be happy with you and free,  I wish I wasn't so blue.
I love you.