Analysis of Apparently Lost

What evidence or certainty do we have it all regarding afterlife, the truth and when it calls? Yes, and what is more is if to know there's more to gain,
For if I die and go to hell, I doubt a spirit feels pain
Or if the Pearly Gates is where I shall be headed,
Tell me now, what spirit cares if streets are gold embedded and
Then, of course, what of the source that says I'll be reset?
Could it be a tiny flea could return as an egret?
It seems as but a stretch of our sweet imagination, and It feels as but a sponge that avoids all validation
And if it's true that we use a small percentage of our brain,
Why can't it be that what we think we know now is insane?
Is it disturbing when one questions what he or she has learned,
When as a child, lies from your folks felt as though they burned
And told for what, subordination?
Well, if so, then for whom,
Big Brother, mom and dad, myself, god or Dr. doom? I wish deeply that the day of understanding would arrive.
More so, I hope it comes and stays while I am still alive.