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Vainwolf6969
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My mind has a mind of its own. They challenge each other & often do battle. I struggle between their conflicts. For examples... My family can no longer be called family for they have exiled me & deliberately continue to disregard my suffering & transient status. My idealistic concepts of what family values should be, are painfully delusional. Resentment of those who I have loved, had committed to instantly & were invested in entirely, who simply used then deleted me, took advantage of & abandoned me. My loyalty & contributions were also proven to be foolishly wasted. I know myself well yet life has lost meaning. My worth is unmatched & purpose is defeated. I'm trapped & can't stand this empty existence. This freedom lacks what I desire the most, a safe & dependable place, peaceful headspace & a caring relationship that stays- that's what I call a loving home. *keeps dreaming