Analysis of Me

I can not seem to comprehend why everything is a lie to me, here we go again there goes my anxiety, I’m short of breath, I’m so depressed, now the demons are  surrounding me, my mind is fogged my thoughts are dark the hurt lies deep inside of me, I’m so complexed, will not subside; the darkness takes control of me , I want to go into the light but my senses are all lying to me, They make me feel like I belong to this huge society  ,  I understand that this deceit is only being fed to me, but I also understand that this is my reality, I can never seem to reach where I really need to be, Instead I dwell inside my self in some illusive fantasy, I continue to wait for someone to help; as I slowly loose my sanity,
Raging anger, paranoia, right back to my misery;  I’m drained, on edge, I trust no one, I’m losing my ability; no focus , no desire, no way I will think clearly. I hate the lies and all the promises that people made to me, no one kept their word so I decide to balance my chemistry,  in this world, I can say I finally reached my destiny, no desire no more will, no more loving family.