Depressed

I cant wait to see the misery unfold inside of  me,
probably so exciting and full of sorcery,
I will greet it with such kindness as I watch it turn on me, the marvel of its torment and all its mystery, its coming from a distance very frantically, I can’t wait to feel the sorrow and the pain it brings to me, my soul fills full of anguish when it’s finally all here, when it’s gone it’s just like magic, it just up and disappears.