Fentanyl

I met you,
I like you,
I feel so good around you,
i enjoy you,
I adore you,
i am so happy that I found you, 
you make me feel amazing,
but at times you make me crazy,
I’m not sure if it’s the same thing,
but now the feeling is hazy, 
It’s so painful,
I start flirting,
I need you to get it for me,
I will  hate you and resent you,
Don’t you know that I am  hurting,
I need it,
I must have it, 
it will grab my soul and stab it,
I won’t call it an addiction,
to me that’s only fiction,
I can stop at anytime,
And I will call it a vindication,
But for now I must have it,
and I always need to feed it,  when I wake out of this mourning,
I can’t wait to go and greet it,
the future is so frightening,
I have lost the will to fight, my life is getting darker than the coldest darkest night,
I am lost in all this madness, I need you now like  before,
This hunger doesn’t stop, I keep on needing more and more,
If I leave I’m coming back to you, don’t worry my good friend,
If I don’t come back it was because Was feeling blue again.