Itsn1c0d3mu5's Poems

Here's the list of poems submitted by itsn1c0d3mu5 — There are currently 18 poems total — keep up the great work!

WHY NOT not cry / why not scream / why never speak his name aloud again / the curse of a man / born into existence / I could have stayed away / I didn't / by the time I'd figured it out he was already gone / and so was I / by the time anyone realizes... – *by Nicodemus*	4 Views added 1 month ago	Rating
UNTITLED (DEC '23) Snippets of memories Both painful & delightful Flash before my eyes I feel both protected & ridiculed Like the world knows something I don't And there's a lot that I know Like that I was supposed to be born a boy Perhaps a... – *by Nicodemus*	7 Views added 4 months ago	Rating
WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN I wonder why Every summer now, we go through this I think back to the picture we took together Which I had captioned: "Summer love... Haha jk... Unless?" And I think that must be what's done it I think I made you love me too much I think... – *by Nicodemus*	3 Views added 4 months ago	Rating
Morning Alchemy I rise, just after the sun has. Watch the birds sing and play tag on the steps. Listen to them as I puff on my menthol cigarette, this kind of breathing more habit than instinct. More addiction than hobby. As I smoke, my brain just as empty first... – *by Nicodemus*	8 Views added 4 months ago	Rating
UNTITLED (December '23) Snippets of memories Both painful & delightful Flash before my eyes I feel both protected & ridiculed Like the world knows something I don't And there's a lot that I know Like that I was supposed to be born a boy Perhaps a... – *by Nicodemus*	1 View added 4 months ago	Rating
AN ODE TO THE FIRST MAN I EVER TRULY LOVED We were literally children, growing up side by side. I admired you. You were new in class. You were mixed, like me. Beautiful brown eyes. Beautiful hair, smile, everything. We were so innocent, so little, nothing like love was on the table but I... – *by Nicodemus*	8 Views added 4 months ago	Rating
MANTRA Here’s what I always say: No dad is better than a bad dad. If you have no dad, There are other people to fill the role. There are others there to support you Like a father would. Or should. If you have a bad dad, The role is soiled. ... – *by Nicodemus*	12 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
TEAR SOAKED BIRD CHEST In those old memories / I try not to close my eyes / out of fear of getting lost in them / But... / Lately I find myself / allowing them to fall shut / during a specific recounting of a specific memory / On the 3rd night in Tampa / an old song /... – *by Nicodemus*	8 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
Happy Early Birthday I wish you well from afar / I would rather forgive you than forget you / Through this, I see you / Now as you are and the change you can make, or have made. / No matter what you have done wrong / I cherish our few nights together. / I learned much... – *by Nicodemus*	7 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
FOR YOU. The soft sound of crickets in Autumn Motors humming past the train tracks Gentle smoke billows in the breeze And here, now I feel at home, with you The anger, the melancholy Dissipating into the night sky With your presence... – *by Nicodemus*	4 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
END OF DAYS I can't find it within me / To lament what has already been decided / It's not my fault / I didn’t ask for this / I didn't ask to be born / I didn't ask to deal with this heavy cross / Stake to the chest / Silver bullet to the skull / Loopholes with... – *by Nicodemus*	2 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
THE SUMMER OF CONFUSION The summer was hot, and angry Lonely in company Shuffled from one location to the next Always arguing, or stewing in hate— But then, you came back. You looked different, much. Smile dazzling, More tattoos, Less outwardly shy.... – *by Nicodemus*	6 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
OMINOUS The crows do not know you. Prepare: the clock ticks on. The vultures swarm around The dead The pigeons soar above The bustling city The ravens cry out: “Rejoice! For we have found another Of our own!” The grandfather clock in... – *by Nicodemus*	6 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
RE-CENTER My nightmares come out to haunt me All these mismatched memories I rarely make it above average It's doubtful that I'll win in the end I keep doing my best to outdo myself My spirituality is an amalgamation I want to protect it... – *by Nicodemus*	5 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
A Peaceful Post-War Home As twilight stars twinkle above us, the water cooling our flesh / We must take pause to breathe deep / Listen to the crickets, the cicadas / Collect their shells for later / As a reminder of all the years gone by / A testament to our survival / The... – *by Nicodemus*	11 Views added 5 months ago	Rating
Misplaced & Misfit Often my days feel grayscale; And often these days are painful, or rather dull, like a butterknife. Certain moments are alight in the color of beautiful, everyday happenstances Yet it’s brief, like I’ll blink and it’ll be gone Like a memory from... – *by Nicodemus*	13 Views added 12 months ago	Rating
The Floridian Swamp Beast Lurking in the swamps of Tampa is where I found you Tattooed with obscurities, hair tangled, never brushed Pissing in the hole of your front porch Drinking Colt 45 with the tiniest bit of OJ Your chest concave, hairy and empty Your eyes... – *by Nicodemus*	11 Views added 12 months ago	Rating
My Demon-Lover When I first laid eyes on you in person, Your smile shining brighter than it ever could have in a photo, Your cigarette's smoke strong and choking, Your vocal chords orchestrating a melodic greeting for me and me alone-- I knew that we were... – *by Nicodemus*	27 Views added 12 months ago	Rating