B.C and A.D.

I'm healed . Healed beyond what a doctor can fix or money can buy. In this twist of my world of disguise. Living in my world of disguise is the world I lived in yesterday which is B.C. before Christ . I have been here before.  I know this place to well. I'm reincarnated don't know not sure not interested in finding out my truth behind my human by nature triggered thoughts when his eyes is on the sparrow are yesterday's problem of questioning my beliefs values and morals based off the worlds Who are you where people circumstantial position adapt to they environment by disguise with no mirror to see how you look going out there. I know who I am I been here before.  This is life before Christ. Life Before Christ is waking up with no purpose in life outside of what you know besides covering up when u feel ashamed and sad because your disguise in that world matters depends on who's asking or the plans on your usual normal weekday or weekend may consist of . You will cross happy people with only perfection to the eye and no flaws we call those the disguisers. Disguisers are people here before Christ. People who live a life based off self doubt and self confidence are the disguisers to afraid to be exposed of your truth to a world full of disguisers.  The irony in it is one that should be reckoned with . Because once you get to your comfort zone is it even comfortable anymore when anxiety is dancing through yours thoughts betrayal is teeter- totting down your back resentment in hiding behind your heart and forgiveness has left your body as your conscious speaking.  Outta mind outta body experience is literally forgiveness waiting on u to walk past that mirror you keep dodging everyday u wake up and dodging in a manner of believing what u see and not letting your eyes do the affirmations you scream so loudly of everything that glitters ain't gold.... life Before christ is one I had to find out the hard way. I became stagnant in my different undercover disguises for the disguisers because I know this feeling and this place to well Ive been here before . Its life before Christ. I remember feeling like everyday was gone be the same. The life of disguise which is disguise of all sins behind the guilt and fear of one simple thing . Acceptance for who u are getting dressed without the disguise cause before Christ is the hurtful part of the story the bad part the no hope no love no faith no nothing. This is my story of my before Christ.  All true stories with messed up beginnings have some messed up chapters and sequels and so on . But by the end of the book you soon realize that there is a beauty behind the times u read that story by your favorite author and cried and had to take a break but the book was so good you couldn't walk away without finding out answers or u gotta little hungry so u had to want to take a break to go feed yourself but this author is so good you forgot to feed yourself and now you are malnourished but this author digging and spirit touching in a way that's felt like u can relate and its cause u can.  Now u don't have to put no disguise on cause u I forgot to tell u why u was into the book and sympathetic and empathizing with the author.  Because of your faithfulness and your disguise to a sacrificial understanding of what u didn't understand at the time cause you was in the pages of before Christ but the thing is about A.D  is they used to say A.D. was after death but more importantly the latin name is anno domini meaning the year Jesus was born . Jesus is a man known for his many stories of many trials and tribulations just to prove to the people that God was real and God being his father sacrificed his only son for the sins of people all over the world ones created one's deceased and ones alive and ones sick and all he asked was that no matter what you go through or what u feel value you your life for he loves us beyond what are disguisers might tell us . Before christ people will laugh and won't get it but symbolic value to me when it comes to A.D . Is life after death.  Sometimes u gotta let who rge world and those dark thoughts corrupting you be your creators through love making of your existence let your weary heart feel again a contrite heart is a heart wketh of gold that rebirth you from your I been hear days to this is a life of sacrificial behind my sacrificial understanding of God's love and the price it pays one that is something money can't buy and a doctor can't fixed. I've been healed simply by my understanding of before Christ and after death. We are reincarnated everytime something dies connected us . Death and dying is not just the physical form of death when it comes to human . Anything can die and come back to life and it all starts with the departure of the first phase to immortality between what u feel by what you hear or see or think taste or smell to whats felt from within. That's my story of healing from B.C to A.D.