There's a shadow by my window

There's a shadow by my window

I lays my head on her pillow
Crying out your name
In my prayers you are always in them
When the rain makes it's sounds
The tears start too come down without sound

There's a shadow by my window I see it is him again
Telling me that know one needs to know about him but me
Silent crying for a childhood gone by
I slowly dying with the secret I hides close to my heart
I always prayed for this coldness to go away

Another night left to eternity
Another memory to deny
I counted hundreds  of stars
wishing upon everyone of them I could see
counting all my dreams and all the tries to forget about
What no one else will ever know

Silent crying for a childhood gone by
Silent cry's that will never end until I die
I hold on to hopes and dreams that made me escape the pains
This old life has given me
I had to grow up before my time
Don't you see the pains in my eyes ?

I'm slowly dying with the secret of lost pains
That this old childhood gave
O dear God please take it away
This pain I had hidden
What no one else will ever know but me and him
Silent crying for a childhood gone by
this secret I hide cuts me every night of my life

Silent crying is the bleeding of my soul
I had dared to see the face that comes to me
I would always find blood on my pillow when I get up
The tears had been came too much
The word he had always told me comes back in my dreams
Oh how they make me scream .

Lilly Emery (c)