Pain Of Perception

Perception. How we perceive things changes how we feel. How others make us feel. The way we see things directly reflects how we feel and how people can make us feel. Its a personal experience. Perception. Feelings. And it's funny how something so personal can be altered so easily by everyone else, except us. Except me. Except you. You remember hurtful things. Theyre there. Deep down where you left them in an effort to keep moving forward and be happy, somewhat. But they never really go anywhere, do they? They linger and everything you see and do and feel from that point is perceived differently. The pain of perception is just that. Its permanent. Its personal. But it isn't yours. Not truly. It belongs to everyone who has ever hurt you,  or created those memories that you perceive as pain. And its yours and yours only to carry. To be burdened. To feel. Its permanent because your perception cannot be shared by the ones who share the memories. They have their own. Vastly different and full of implications about you. You caused that. Me. Us. The pain is the only shared experience. Its different though. Not like the memories. The pain is similar throughout all involved. Pain hurts you. Me. Us. We all feel it. The only difference is who we blame for it. But who can we blame when it is our own perception that caused the pain? I guess we can only blame ourselves. And in the end, when our memories have faded and we disappear, the blame is useless. The pain is gone, and our perception no longer lives deep where it used to. It fades with us. I look forward to that.