Roller-coaster Love

As sadness reigns over me, dark clouds & rains over me; salt water fills my optical vision & incision in my heart & now I bleed, oh God why I plead, thats who I want thats who I need, love flees, I thought love is free, Agape/Unconditional theres degrees,  in time salty waters will receed, I will love again in you I believe, Gods soil is where I sow seeds, & they grow & produce trees, hurt and heal, love again or never wanna again feel, confusion about how much of you my love was real, did I make it all up, what was the big blow up, the turn up was turned down,  laughter & happiness disrupt, why not discuss instead we fight/fuss and cuss and it hurts, I feel the absence of what could be my better half vanishing from my heart felt grasp, my future love becoming my past; how long will this vacancy last, connected to you so I try to hold on, It no longer matters who's right or wrong, harmony & melody is missing lyrics to a potential love song, another night & another day with out you I must mourn, my emotional state is torn, I think hold on or is it time to move on, wait patiently until dawn, unwrapped like a ball of yawn, tired and sleepy I yawn.