Broken Record Sins...

This must be insanity!? I'm fully aware of the outcome or how the ending might turn out. How could I truly do it all over again repeating histories shameful paths eagerly took? I was in debt before almost had my head out the water. Now I've sunk so far deep below. Why must I do these things to myself? Do I hate me? Do I hate you? I've lost my strong-head possibly. Am I truly this weak? I've defeated so much MORE and overcame that. I can't do this on my own! I admit it! I need alot of strength & support. It's like everytime I start to pick myself up and dust myself off alittle. I gettin to walking abit and trip fall flat on my face. I want us both to agree! We are MORE valuable! We are destined for greatness! We want to live and not die! I don't know how you haven't seen probably cause it had you like me.  This has really gotten me looking in the mirror daily to get reacquainted with who I've transformed into this day! I don't want this! I NEVER did! What made me listen to the devil's lies? Wisest advice given one is always TOO many & a thousand is NEVER enough! This will only destroy you it doesn't let up.