please stop I can’t take it anymore

I unlock the door
Walk into my home
I hear the familiar sounds
I fast forward the scene in my head


Barney is on the TV
Purple,fat and ugly
He used to be my childhood friend

His hide is dark purple like the potassium manganate I learnt about today
I’m 16.

K walks to the dining table and says Mummy Mummy Mummy
Change Change Change

Mother picks up the remote
rewinds the video
But K still sits there the same

Familiarity of our daily routine both soothes and sinks me

It’s the latter as Dad enters the house

K launches towards dad
a dagger with a mission
K hasn’t learnt that Barney won’t be his friend forever  

I wish he had
But if he did
he wouldn’t be two people at once and one conundrum in 2 seconds

My brother is 19.