I Lived

I Lived .....

I  lived by the needle
I lived by the pipe
I lived in the streets
I lived out of sight

I stood in the dark
I stood in the fire
I stood all alone
I sent for my desire

My heart had turned cold
My feelings numb
I was losing this battle
And then some

I would talk to angels
But listen to demons
Strapping on liquid cuffs
While praying for freedom

I would try to cry
But no tears would fall
I had so much
And lost it all

I was truly on my own
Everyone disappeared
No family no friends
It is what I always feared

So I lived
While slowly dying
Praying for wings
Dreaming of flying

Until I searched
Deep inside
Finding my lost soul
I can no longer hide

Then I stood tall
Heartbroken and bruised
And walk towards the angels
Where my soul could be soothed

By caitlin daquisto