A Taken Way

I lost the most important person in my life today

And yet she walks amongst us

A truly unbearable pain

Uncertain what futures hold thus

A duly insurmountable strain

A sadness has since overcome me

Smiley exterior obscuring weeps internally

Had I known love expired I would’ve taken an absence of leave

‘Coz for me love goes on with no gauges capable of measure WTF just happened?!

I’m a fierce lover…if I love you?!...watch out…I’ma pierce my lover…lose myself in all of her

Including her snores and farts

Snap back to a broken heart

I am in so much pain right now

It takes me forever to do even the most basic and routine tasks because I just drift off and forget what I was doing.

I’ve cried out of pure heart ache and agony

Every moment fearful

Stompped your feet on my heart’s shell

Unleashing gushing falls on our late spring

And I understand that seasons change, that’s just the thing

Because yours was more like that huge climate undertaking

What an effort, and how poetic for Paris of all places to set the stage for the death of both flings

Hard to call it that after 13

Day in ~ week out ~ month in ~ years stack

You chose to store your love when you should’ve unpacked

At least then I could find corroborating evidence contrary to your stated facts

Sing sing my organ atop a peak of her indifference

Seeking a love that spews hindrance

Pressure gets so intense in your presence I just want to get away ~ Bifrost ~ Heimdall

A recurring theme that I thought you had broken

well , I guess you did, just not your recurring theme, but that crimson one

The one that gave itself to you ~ the one that held you above all else except his Creator

Even beyond my own mother

And maybe that’s the price I pay for that traded blunder

Man, I thought I would cliche the rest of my life with her

Instead she neglected me and let me whither

Maybe I’m imagining this but i feel my heart hanging lower inside my chest

Is that even a thing? Sounding more like  a fling

Diamond  status downgraded ~ losing its bling

If your feelings don't suffice for motivating ~ Guiding limbs ~ touching him ~ step by step instructions between lovers? Why is that even a thing?

Maybe I’m being overly dramatic but it just doesn’t feel right, and that is sad

It saddens me beyond a point of expression how we couldn’t make each other happy

But I must adjust and accept that cruel reality

Abandoned in an abyss ~ what a manner to awaken

Yet I’m finally wrapping my head around what’s happened

It seems I had been given away before I was taken