Lessons of Loss: Guiding My Path Ahead

The ache of absence fills my solitude each night,
As moonbeams dance and stars shine their pale light.
Mem'ries of your embrace keep sleep at bay,
Rendering rest but a fleeting fray.   
Yet in silent musings reason does guide,
The wounds you left cut deep, defiled.           
I yearn for closeness, your whispered praise,
But know not to tread those former ways.

The scars below remind just why I fled,    
From bonds now broken,communications dead.              
Your fickle nature, untrustworthiness shown,  
Made me question what I had once called my own.
No longer will I live at another's behest,    
Demeaning myself, foregoing self-possessed rest.
Those injurious patterns now stay put behind,
As toward new purpose I my heart and mind bind.  

Nostalgia stirs longing's bittersweet brew,   
But wisdom bids me not to heed regret's rue.
Each interaction's fruits I've tasted through and through,    
Time reveals all, leaves no doubt of the untrue.
My destiny lies not where hurts did once hold reign,  
Away from manipulation, control, disdain.
Though fond remembrance sparks fond tears I weep,    
In solace and growth my future I will reap.

Oft do visions of past joy in dreaming present,
Causing ephemeral stirrings of sentiment.       
But wakefulness brings clarity's lucid declaration,    
That any return ensures but devastation.           
While your memory in my psyche has quarter found,   
Toward new vistas must my endeavors be bound.
Let days gone by with lessons learned retreat,   
As I embrace what's ahead with courage discreet.

So with fortitude I resist temptations call,
To slip trailing back into bonds that could enthral.          
No more will false promises my wary heart claim,   
Or tender wounds in manipulative games bleed their stain.  
Fate's design leads me down diverse avenues,   
Away from whatdiscord and distress renew.  
At peace with myself I can fond reminiscences hold,   
While toward the future, new horizons I behold.

Though missing your presence plies sorrow's keen tool,
Memory guides me to honor my rule.
Our sundered souls now dwell distant apart,  
Each on their journey with healed, stable heart.
No longer shall shackles of past bring me low,  
To new vistas my pursuits now shall flow.

While dreams of past joys fanciful notions impart,   
Awake brings clarity to fortify my heart.
Gone are the days when your falsehoods held lease,
Now in good graces my spirit finds peace.
Towards future horizons my compass does steer,
Leaving you and past shadows no more to fear.

Within life's fertile fields fresh blossoms shall bloom,   
Displacing memories kept in past's room.
New bonds may compass affection so true,  
What once was fades, as fresh love fills my view.
Content in solitude's sanctum I'll bide,   
Till soulmate destined finds me by Fate's guide.

Each beat of my heart remembers though still in pain,  
Your memory lessons to empower my gain.    
No more will soul-wounds in old cycles be sent,
As from past's folly my being is rent.
Towards new adventures my being takes wing,   
Leaving past shadows no power to sting.

Though distance now separates body from soul,
Memory's fare keeps past tied to its goal.   
Yet learnings from past shall light future road,    
As joy, peace, wisdom my journey bestowed.
Your memory fades, as new days are weaved,
Past remains past - present concerns achieved.

No longer tethered to impacts since flown,    
Each new dawn beauty and promise has shown.
Reflections on past bring evolved understanding,  
Guiding present living, with care comprehending.
All souls on their destined course do roam,    
While in solace and faith, my spirit finds home.