Surrendering the Unknown

Somedays it hits me all over again,
And I feel that familiar pain in my heart.
Although I try to run from reality,
I catch myself slipping back into the dark.

Trying to hide tears behind closed doors,
Since that is what I learned to do.
That’s when sadness comes knocking,
Suddenly it manages to break through.

Denial has kept me safe at times,
But it is not a permanent escape.
I’d rather not disclose any anger,
Yet those words continue to replay.

If only people knew the whole story,
But fear has tried to keep me quiet.
I tried to bury it all inside of me,
Only with God, I have safely confided.

I have struggled to give this to Him,
But now I am too tired and weak.
I surrender from this endless fight,
It is time to “turn the other cheek”.

I do not feel that justice was served,
But I will trust in God’s plan.
It is not something I can change,
Now I know that only He can.

I may not understand this yet,
But I believe He will follow through,
It is no longer worth my energy,
I already did all that I could do.