Should I put my pain in paper

SHOULD I PUT MY PAIN IN PAPER?

Should I put my pain in paper?
Field is ready it might rain.
Mom taught me to smile, covering pain with laughter.
She told me my pain does not define me.
How do you heal when your perpetrator is roaming around the street.?

How do you move on when your past keeps on coming back?
If pillows could talk mine would reveal deepest secrets that could shock the world.
If diaries could talk mine would reveal shocking secrets that will shake the world.
My tears are now dry,
My pain is too deep,
My scar is unseen.

I will no longer cut my thighs, nor my wrist.
I will no longer cry myself to sleep.
Should I put how he killed me in paper?
Will you still look me at the same way, you used to?
Should I tell you how I couldn’t hold my pee for almost 10 years?
Should I tell you how I am disgusted of myself?

Should I tell the world how I hate myself more than I hate him?
Should I put my scars out do that the world could see them?
I know It’s weird, but do you know what the weirdest thing is?
I blame myself for not fighting, I blame myself for not ending this pain.
Ever went to bed feeling like death?
Should I show you how deep is my scar?

Borrow  me pen and paper so that I would tell the world how he killed me.
Borrow  me pen and paper so that I will put my pain down.