A Life
Aadarsh Saren 1999 (Sydney)
A life of regret, a life of sadness
A life of longing, A life of hope
A life of joy, and a life of hate
A mixed bag, this life
A life of pain
I’ve lived many a life in this lifetime alone
But I’ve indeed spent it on my own
In a cage, far distant and cold
A prison of bars and pillars of stone
Perhaps easy to break, not so on my own
The whimsy of life eludes me, even at home
The laughter of children, and couples outside
The birds chirping, and angels that cry
A scene so jubilant, so keen to the eye
If I were to take the throne
Would this happiness be mine?
Is this life a lesson - or a gift, divine?
Is it the book, or just a chapter in mine?
So I grew and changed, and grew some more still
And I did take that throne, I took life by the hilt
I loosened my chains, and for more I do pray
Yet for now I have meaning, and so forward I stray
Keen to explore, to keep the demons at bay
These memories of yore, perhaps suffice to say
Are irrelevant
To my needs and struggles of today
Yet as soon as I’m idle, they come back to taunt me
Not a moment of peace in this life that is haunted
Perhaps ghosts are real, but not how you’d think
Perhaps they are figments of the stories we keep
I fight my own battles, as the knight of my castle
The King and the servant, both equal in battle
Yet one and the same, so equal there too
But life is deceitful, and it played me the fool
See life can be twisted, and often complex
A quick, sordid turn from “the greatest, the best”
To taken too soon, and too then laid to rest
A fate like all of the others of “lesser” had met
My castle had fallen, and I fell to depression
An utter blackness, like none ever mentioned
My cage again rose from the ground
Encased in the ashes of my kingdom now drowned
I was diseased, dragging my feet to defeat
Staring death in the eye and gritting my teeth
I’d fallen to nature, not man as intended
Yet i was still bitter, and so too my intention
But spite alone cannot win this battle
And I was too young to break these shackles
I was scared beyond belief
Caught in the headlights, I was forced to reflect
What is this life to me?
A life of hope, a life enjoyed
A life of pain, a life destroyed
A life entrapped, a life denied
A life of ventures, this life of mine
A life of failures, a life of guile
A life of substance, a life of style
A life of longing, a life of hate
A life forgiving, a life of change
This mantra I spoke
To myself in my bed
Maybe a thousand times
When my chest filled with dread
And when the nurse came and left?
The solace of life, was this rhyme in my head
A life is hope, and I yearn it again
And life is pain, but that I can’t condemn
For life is a pendulum, balanced on a thread
What a lesson I learned, and I learned from the best
We’re forever students, till the day of our deaths
And so I found my answer, as I got to my feet
Building my castle from the rubble beneath
Life is not joy, and life is not pain
Life is not happiness, and life is not hate
Life is not fickle, as our emotions are strange
But life is a blessing
Because life can bring change
About this poem
At the age of 22 in 2021, I developed cancer which led to emergency surgery and some time in radiation therapy. I’ve struggled with depression since a child, and often felt like I was wasting my life. I was just starting to blossom when the news hit. I fell into a deep, deep well of negativity and it took a long time to escape. I went from optimism to devastated. But having had time to process and heal/adjust to my circumstance now, I’ve a different perspective on life. It really isn’t about what you do in your life, but how you let your life affect you. I still want to get things done, but I’ve changed so much in this period and it’s made me better for it. I wanted to channel that into words for the sake of preserving the lessons I learned through the ordeal. In short, the poem is about strength and evolution in the face of extraordinary circumstances, but also about the simple growth of the soul when faced with these challenges. It’s also, in a different sense, somewhat autobiograp more »
Written on February 16, 2023
Submitted by oblicraft2 on February 15, 2023
Modified on March 14, 2023
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Closest metre | Iambic pentameter |
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Words | 652 |
Stanzas | 20 |
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