Alone

Feeling alone
Feeling sad
Breaking down
Crying mad
Where do i go
What do i do
Hiding the pain
With a smile i hope
No-one can see
What is truly broke
Why did it happen
The way that it did
Why can't i change
The things that i did
Why do you hate me
And make me feel unloved
Why was i never good enough
I lost my dad
And also lost a mom
But continue to put a smile on
To hide the pain
To hide the hurt
But most of the time
It doesn't work
I have no-one here
To care for me
No-one to listen
To the pain i feel
I am alone
And in my own mind
Only about 100% of the time
My mom is alive
And well
But is only there for her new family
While i never get calls
Just checking on me
Or i love yous
My dad would
Always speak
The past was bad
And the future bleak
Why can't i just let go
And try and be me