I want to be free

No one knows how it feels to be me,
Locked in this body, I long to be free,
My brain has all these brilliant ideas ,
My body says no, not happening my dear,
I want to be normal and go to the shop,
I dont want the pain or the "I'm going to drop"
Then there's the fog that makes me forget,
I'm trying to remember but here comes the sweat,
The dizziness is here and it's not going away,
The hot pokers in my joints will not keep at bay,
The muscle spasms pop up and shout here I am!
Now comes the anxiety along with sweaty palms,
I cant breathe, the world is going to end,
The pain in my chest that I cannot suspend,
The world is spinning and I can't get a grip,
This needs to end or I am going to flip,
This ship will sink from so many leagues,
I cant bear this constant fatigue,
People don't get it, you can't understand,
The simplest of things are so hard to withstand,
Do you think I really want to be this freak?
Not able to function and being so damn weak?
Why can't you see the effort I make,
Everything I attempt, for yours and their sake,
I dont ask to be stuck in this cage,
It looks like a body but inside it's plagued,
Please see I try, I want to be me
Believe me when I say, I want to be free!