Learning to survive

I saw too much, it was all I had
I was incarcerated to the darkness in everyone I know
Woah-oh-oh
Always found the good in everything, all the best effort, a light within.
After years better buried, I see all the moments  I missed in my ignorance.
Woah-oh-oh
And it feels like my bones are prison I'm living in
Did I earn all the pain and the ignorance?
I'm too young to blame, too numb to omit
(Accountability is a weight so heavy)
I feel my heart's giving up
I can feel my mind degrading in me (will I make this out alive?)
Staring at my broken heart that I'm too proud of to hide
So many memories’ I can't escape
Burning my bridges to light my way
I can feel me watching me (Ill make this out alive)
I'm learning to survive
Here I am wide awake, no Its not storming yet I'm not as scared as I was back then
A shock to the heart, Will I ever feel again.
Woah-oh-oh
And it feels like my bones are prison I'm living in
Did I earn all the pain and the ignorance?
I'm too young to blame, too numb to omit
I feel my heart's giving up
I can feel Me watching me. while I'm learning to survive
Staring at my broken mind that I'm too prideful to hide
So many demons I can't erase
Burning my rope to light the way
I can feel Me watching me. but I'll make it out alive
I'm learning to survive
I'm letting go of my pain that I've fought to tear down for years
I'm learning to survive
I'm letting go. of the shame from my guilty mistakes
I'm learning to survive
With new light, with new life
It was the only way that I .can keep fighting here today
With new light, with new life
It was the only way that I am here today
I can feel me watching me. While I'm learning to survive
(Learning to survive)
Staring at my broken Heart that I'm too blessed to hide