Tormented Fate

My self-sacrifice is causing chaos within.
Suffocating with good intentions.
Whilst keeping myself restrained.
Using distraction to stop thinking of him.

Mentally, emotionally I’m becoming exhausted.
Conflicted storm swirling within me.
Do not tell me you understand.
Tormented feelings from the heart to the head.

I try to compartmentalize that I like him.
Respecting that he values friends.
Friendships are worth sacrificing for.
Wishing I could be stronger at locking it in

Instant attraction isn’t a normal thing for me.
Feelings need to build for months or years.
Fates always throw me wicked curveballs.
I know though, that this is how it's meant to be.

Although my heart is left craving for more.
I’ll accept this disappointment confidently.
Never did like overstepping boundaries.
If it truly comes to it, I’ll show myself the door.