Consequence of feelings

VOID. Filled with sorrow.
PAIN. For joy, no tomorrow.
HATE. For cruel unwanted feeling.
An empty heart. Part of my being.

REGRETS. Simply for breathing.
LIFE. Existing while not wishing living.
FEAR. Despair for reason unknown.
ALIVE. I see faces, but am so alone.

DREAMS: Only imagination,
A heart that comes with my creation
Makes me feel the void filled with sorrow;
A happy feeling...I wish I could borrow.

DESIRE I have: to not feel pain.
I am the creator; so I hope in vain.
If I could smile, I would mean it so,
But Fear, Pain Regrets tell me No!

EMPTINESS hugs me oh, so tight!
Unknown imagination hunts me at night.
TRAPPED: what a dark soul and thought!
An endless battle,  with myself I fought.

Can't LEAD so, who to follow?
Made mistakes so many, so hollow...
What did I lose? In me, all the trust...
Too late for tears, but inevitably a MUST!