Never took the time

I wish I did
Take the time
I didn't have a kid
You can charge me for this crime
For I had the time
But I hid, and left you thinking
I didn't have the time
I was busy
Like my life doesn't have a Friday
I'm busy, that's why I'm always away
You understand
I hear you, you don't demand
I'm sure it might have never crossed your mind
I think you might have cared at first
But ended up accepting that it's who I am
That's how we're meant to be
An idea I never have embraced
I can't blame you, you had to in your shoes
Choose to snooze the confusion
The news gave as excuses

I wish I did
Take the time
For I had the time
Other than using it to learn
To understand you
To know you to your core
To explore you not end at your shore
Not just know about your academic scores
But know to tell that you're sore
Know the war inside you and not ignore it
Telling you it'll be fine and leave you with your buried corps
Shove everything into your closet and claim your room is clean
I should've gone underneath your bed, remove the boogeyman
Rip his guts off, not tell you grow up, stop being childish, stupid
I mean stop pressuring you to do more
And think I am motivating you to get to the top
Stop giving you lectures and drop my ego
Sit down with you eat some mango
And let you know it's normal to be stressed
Depressed, sad whatever you're feeling
Work with what you're dealing with and not force healing
Not concealing the truth
Assuming you're now feeling good
I should've peeled you, let you be real
Understand you're youth, not force you to be ideal
But let you follow your zeal

To cherish your weaknesses
Embrace you and your flaws
Show you they make you strong not a mess
I shoudn't have dressed you up and leave you with
The pressure to impress
I should've taken the time
To know your buttons, read your manual
Try them out, know if you like mutton
Or you're into pork
Know what pleases you, what you are like
I assumed, you're just another gadget
I know how these things work
I was a real jerk
I guess I had hidden pride
I was proud that I was humble
I was obsessed with us looking like we don't fumble
We're stable, we don't stumble
So we all look alike, when we stand side by side
We look like we are aligned

I wish I did
Take the time
It's true that I didn't have the time
A truthful lie, we can't debate
Like saying you had sex when you masturbate
Now I see a side of you I really never knew
I was afraid to click all your buttons
I was afraid of reveling my own buttons
I was obsessed with being perfect
So I never was direct
So if I am incorrect
I am still protected
I thought that's what you wanted
Not my flaws
A lie again, you told me you do
You want to be part of my pain
You want to ride my train and know my brain
You don't want to be with me and not have a clue
Of what I go through
You want to know when I screw
The true me who chews a gum not a statue
You want to fit my shoes, know me deep to my tissues
But I was hunted with being fictional
Man of steel, ideal, the best you had or will ever have
I went on to satisfy what I thought you meant
A lie, I heard what I wanted to hear
I went on to do what I wanted to do
Stubborn me, it was all about me
Making you smile, pleasing my empty pride
I tried to reach the clouds
Wearing the robe left me thinking I can fly
I fell like spider man without his webs
Returned to my Bruce Banner form
Then I ran away to hide my shame
Erase my steps and leave with my empty pride attached

I wish I did
I wish I took time
To click those buttons
It's so sad as you read or hear
Because I think you have buttons
I didn't even know you're a touch screen
Your favorite color is green
I didn't even know you have face recognition
You gave me your petition
But like a politician I kept repeating like a musician
What I thought you wanted, based on my suspicions
Like land expropriation
So I can say I have accomplished something
So I keep my position
Make the opposition feel that they have a competition
Selfish, I wanted to give you the moon
But you wanted me
And I thought you were broken
Because I couldn't find the finger print button
By the cover I judged
By the author I concluded
I can't modestly boast to my friends
Then I suspended my efforts
Like a ghost I pretended
So you get offended and get this to the end
So I still look right and splendid

I really wish I had taken the time
Removed my cover and let you in
Let you examine me like my surgeon
Recognize my face and undress my fears
Measure my heart rate and know what I hate
What makes me tick and what makes me sick
Know I'm delicate, I have no screen protector
I feel imperfect, I am conflicted
I feel like I am depicted as strict and perfect
Whereas I have a lot of defects they can't detect
Thus I am restricted by their projection of me
As I think they want me to be so I be

That's why I wanted to impress you
So you think I am
But you didn't want to be impressed
You wanted to see what was hidden behind my cover
You wanted a lover, understood it's imperfect
It's not Cinderella, not a happy ever after
There won't always be laughter
There will be fights, it will be tough
But a journey you're willing to walk
You even went off your way, to make sure it works
But I drew back, watched you like a jerk
It's a lie to say I thought you weren't perfect
I thought you were it scared me
For I wasn't but was trying to be
It was natural to you, artificial to me
My perfection was based on other's imperfections
I was afraid you'll come to know the truth
Know that I am just a man, Mr. Stark without the iron
I am weak as T'Challa stripped of his powers
Like Thor, pretence is my hammer
It makes me feel like the god of thunder
And that is all I had, lies, I also had you
I know you wouldn't run away
Your eyes don't lie, they glittered your passion
Your souls affection, genuine perfection
I don't know what's wrong with me

I wish I had taken the time
Taken the time to open up
For I impressed friends
But they all left
They never knew I wanted them to stay
If they stayed, they'll come to know me and I was afraid
I never let my feelings get attached, it hurts to miss you guys
I think everything through and fun passes me by
I was never real, for that's my kryptonite
I got no superpowers so I isolate myslef in my batman's suit
A lie I fail to overpower, nobody wants to see the face of Deadpool
Sure that's why he wears a mask to cover the reality he can't face

I wish, take me back, will I be different
Am I programmed, am I wicked
I feel like I'd fail again
I would write again
I would sing this song
I wish I had taken the time