Broken Promises

I hate that I'm still in love with you
And it'll never be the same again
These thoughts make me uncomfortable
But I just want this pain to end
Thoughts of droppin off the top of buildins need to make amends
For all these sins...
I'm headin to meet my maker
If he's real, I hope he feels all this pain and all of this anger
That I'm dealin with...
Got me to where I can't even cope
Fightin hard as I can but I'm at the end of my rope
I'm feelin so broke...
I just wish that I could fix this shit
Go back to the day that I went and gave you that Christmas gift..
That's when it changed, when you said yes cause of the witnesses
And not because you loved me or you were ready to commit to this...
But I can't blame you...
You have have issues
And I have mine...
Shit, I'm starin down this pistol while I tell you I'm fine
Thinkin of how I lost you goin out of my mind
But it's alright, this pain'll be gone by the end of the night...