Dark Thoughts

(Warning Graphic Content)

Hi kids, do you like violence?
Wanna see me take my throat and stab with an ice pick?
Take this blade and drag it cross my wrist until I'm lifeless?
Or maybe load this gun and put a bullet through my eyelid?
I wish, that these voices in my head would stop
Hoist me to the rafters wrap this rope around my neck and drop
On second thought, I'll take this weapon out and threaten cops
And tell em get to steppin for I wreck em with these 7 shots
All I know is that I want this agony to cease
And all this apathy I'm feelin while I battle this disease
Havin visions of my body wrapped up in a sheet
And while the coroner is takin' notes and standin' at my feet I'm thinkin' f*ck...
How the f*ck did my life get to this?
I'm sick of how I'm feelin' I'm wishin' that I could end this shit
The maleficence of these thoughts I'm sick of the relentlessness
I try to ease the pain I go express it through my penmanship
But it don't help... These thoughts keep gettin' darker
Feel like I'm about to topple there's obstacles I can't conquer
Feel like I'm off my rocker these thoughts are makin me bonkers
And its awkward cause these doctors are tellin' me I'm a monster
But they dont understand my anguish
I try to explain but its like I'm speakin' another language
I'm freakin' out I can't take this
These demons causin' this pain that's
Got me wantin' to blow my brains leave em leakin' over the pavement