Analysis of Silent Awareness

My cover is blown…has been for some time
Though I've denied; God, I am so obvious!
And you are so right – I'm sure everyone knows.
And you are so right – My pain always shows.
How to expect another's respect
When they know inside what I try to hide?
So, nothing is said, and on I go
Thinking I'm good because you're not in the know.
That is a lie and, between you and I,
I'm ashamed and to blame, never the same.
So blunt to confront; being it so,
I've found my moment and I'm letting it go.
Now I see your eyes on me.
That's all I need for my soul to bleed
And cleanse the dirt that causes my hurt
Because I won't lose the ones that I choose
To help heal my heart;
To make a new start.
Don't go away.
I want to stay.

Jampoet Sept 2011