Analysis of I'll pretend

bury the dead in the cool grounds  
that dared to run across your minefields  
claiming to be your friend,  
hypocritical lives,
resisting the moment
when today touches tomorrow   
but I can’t find you there...
  
I feel estranged  
but for now, I’ll pretend; I'll be a hypocrite,
that we're friends....  
a man with empty yesterday's
waiting for a new one today... 
but I can’t start from the bottom ....
 
a glimpse of light emits speckles of notions  
navigating to you  
announcing a confession  
that I can not see you as a friend  
but for now, I’ll pretend to be your friend  
I'll pretend somehow.....