Analysis of addict

The drugs numb the pain, but it never goes away I turn to people I've never wanted only to feel something for a moment but the moments gone the drugs wear off the pain crashes all around me like waves in the ocean begging for attention only to have washed up and been forgotten when the sun sets only chaos and depression thrive in my mind time after time I get forgotten left behind I'm told that god loves all and there's a purpose for all but why do I keep losing friends why does this life seem so meaningless without love without you, I cannot keep walking this road I'm alone forever thinking about you