The Pain and Joy of Moving Forward

I'm the realest, only a few can feel this, I try to conceal this, because out in the streets some of you people look at me like I'm a monster, I just want to know what their deal is, I'm just living my life, why you causing me strife, my goal is to conquer my goals, this is the path I chose, why are you hating and trying to slow me down, dragging me below the ground, under the surface is where all the hurt is, below the Earth, you want to see me cursed and worthless, tormented in pain and agony just like you, I gave you everything you need so you can succeed too, but you play the fool and you don't take good advice, instead you want to take my life, drain me dry like a vampire, taking my energy is what you desire, all the suffering and pain and walking in the rain, I lost everything except a few good friends, they stood by this mentally insane artist with a pen, I promise I will never let this happen again, I was down with you and you were down with me until the end my friend, I never pretend, you can bet your life that I learned my lesson, now I've become the best son, I look towards the positive again except this time nothing will break me, because its the pain and suffering which helped to make me, I thought I had love before, now I have love galore, I look at people with respect, even if they disrespect, I have nothing to prove to you so why should I care what you do or think, Just know that the things I could do to you, would drive you to the brink...of insanity, but I wouldn't even do that to my worst enemy, the man in me prevents me from being the same as you, I'm not a hypocrite so just f*ck*ng admit, that your full of lies, look deep into these eyes, it comes as no surprise that you can feel this deep down inside, now you can see why I despise, my gaze is a reflection in the mirror, now you can see clearer, I understand why you don't like me, I was scared of them too, but I changed and became better, why can't you, now its time to move ahead, I'm so sick of wasting my time and talent on people who don't have a brain in their f*ck*ng head, I thank God for that picture he gave me, those happy people who gave me...hope and an opportunity for success, Its hard to believe that I'm blessed, and this big heart he put in my chest, is the best, now its time for me to stand with my true family, people who I can understand and who can understand me, we share the same mind and I can see that you guys are doing fine, happy and divine, I'm new so all of this is new, I still think I'm dreaming, but I know in my heart this is true, if there's ever anything I can do for you, just say it and its already done, I promise that I will give back to those who are real like us, because I'll be damned if I ever try to help another hater trying to drag me down into the dust.