New Beginnings

A new beginning but yet I still carry some of my past ways which isn't fair to my new beginnings. Heart pure but still scarred, mind there but still gone.

New man with better intentions but my intuition still plays with me, kinda how the last man played with me. Love and loyalty something the last couldn't give to me but in this new beginning, my new man shows me he"s there for me. Wish i couldn't feel my pain receptors because when the pain recites my body goes through a wave of emotions and I'm back to the past ways guarded and scarred, Learning to embrace love but with caution because my past taught me LOVE is just a word!  A "4" letter word with so many games and no true intentions behind it. I have to break the cycle that every man just isn't here to use and abuse me , but to build me and mold me for new beginnings to come...