What queen wants

What am I looking for is a question that I have been asked
How can I put that in certain terms when it's also a feeling
A short answer is what I usually give if someone asks
Though I don't think that they can understand it in entirety

Questioning myself my answer would be totally different
Ultimately I know that I am looking for to much
Everyone would give a different answer or body part
Eyes do like to be pleased and gets blood boiling
No, that's not what matters to me though

What really matters is the person on the inside
A beauty queen can be the ugliest person you will ever meet
No what I want is more of a feeling of just being safe
To be able to be open and honest and trust that I'm not alone
Someone who will help me focus on things that I'm good at

A person may have flaws and to them they are coping skills

Dawn of my birth was the first time emptiness began
I was a child who everyone just gave up on
Raising me and not understanding issues of clarity
To me I always felt that I was always a target
Yet what they saw was only an angry child
Catching someone calling me names fueled fear
Only it was a fear that I wasn't like everyone else
Yet I never had anyone who would listen with their heart
On another note, I may have grown old but I need ones touch
To be able to share a strength I don't always feel
Each time I've let them in, and here I sit alone